Showing posts with label Aleatoric Mnemonics through Polaroids. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Aleatoric Mnemonics through Polaroids. Show all posts

Vivi and Lola


More and more these things happen and I am not sure how to proceed. It used to be that these things would happen and I would know exactly how to proceed, but I inevitably ignore my knowledge in favor of a robust fear of consequences. Now the first part isn't even there anymore. The second part, far more consequential than ever, is not even an option. I am sure I will snap out of it at some point, to predictably dire ends.

Bucky the Dog


In the Spanish language, if you want to call a food bland, you might refer to it as 'insipido.' Learning this gave me a whole new understanding of the English word 'insipid' which I had always figured meant some cancerous awfulness that spreads through a community surreptitiously, wolf-in-sheep's-clothingesque. Really, it just means pretty uninteresting. On the flip side, when something is called 'blanda' in Spanish, it usually refers to something soft.
"Mi hijo es un gigante blanda."

Letters in Sand


Aristotle posited that perfection implies a final finagling of purpose.
Empedocles made the point that perfection is pickled in imperfection.
There, written in the sand by my brother's daughter, is a plaudit to my wife's grandfather.

Pet Cemetery, This Morning


This was a beloved fish apparently. I guess, in some ways, it still is.
My wife and I have talked about what we might do when Magda dies. In the past we have been serious about having her taxidermed into an 'attack' position.
But when I think about it, I figure a more appropriate pose might be curled around an equally taxidermed chicken drumstick. Then we will just sit her on the sill in the sun nursing that pollo for the rest of our days.

Grand Street Playground, Autumn


Alan says the Guatemalans invented time.
That took Everard by surprise.
He figured the Egyptians invented it.
My wife once told me that time doesn't exist,
but it's the most important thing in the world.

Kiki


Kiki stands in his spot up at the track.
"Hey my brother!"
We shake hands and hug.
Kiki asks about my son.
Kiki smiles a foiling smile that mirrors my paternal pride.
"Alright man. Alright brother. Go play some soccer."
He turns back to the neighborhood go-getters and tells them to do ten more crunches.
He hands them weighted balls.
He puts big rubber bands around their legs.
Everyone loves Kiki.

No Polaroid. But This.

There is a rumor going around that I am running out of Polaroids and that is why I have been posting less. This is simply untrue. That is, the rumor. I don't think it exists. Rumors necessitate some sort of clique or communicating population base. Perhaps there are some suspicions though. That doesn't require too many people. Or any communication.
I'll say this though: I have many, many Polaroids yet to be pulled out to produce an unwarranted memory or thought process. I have just been lazy and hurried.
However, today, five minutes ago, I read the greatest blog posting I ever read. It inspired me far more than the Polaroids have of late. It is here.

Mollusk Surf Shop Brooklyn


There are all sorts of "how to" books and websites and blogs dedicated to photography. They say things like "make a composition in thirds" or "make sure there is enough headroom" or "find a vantage point with many levels of focus." These are good bits of advice. If someone asked me for a little axiom on taking good, easy photos right out of the can, I'd put up there "take photos of things on a windowsill." That always works.

The Blithe. The Glib. The Sardonic.


The neighborhood of Williamsburg Brooklyn is populated by Hasidim, Boricua, Poles and apparently, trust-funded hipsters. I've had plenty of dealings with the first three groups, but that last group I have yet to bump into with any knowing regularity. However, I am assured with absolute certainty that they hide behind shabby clothes with a special brand of thowback sensibility, mixing insidiously into the population, wreaking a sort of havoc with their bottomless filial war chest, fattening a cultural idiocy on a steady diet of earnestly applied irony for our inevitable, universal consumption by a razor-toothed and ravenous secret society of glossy twelve dollar magazines.
It all sounds so terrifying.

Jeremy, of the Paris Jeremies


Jeremy wakes up refreshed but frazzled. Thats how he likes it. It was his Blackberry that caused him to wake, not the alarm clock on the bedside table. Every night he unplugs the alarm clock only to find it magically replugged when he returns from work. The time is always reset. No matter how many times he has told the maid he doesn't like the way the clock buzzes in his ear at night, she nods her dark eyes, plugs in the clock and resets the time. It is simply part of her "jour" she says.
Jeremy takes the service stairwell down to the boulevard. The service people think this is amusing.
Jeremy has found a boulangerie around the corner at which he has, with dogged determination, made himself a morning local. The man behind the counter and the woman in front of the counter stare in parsimonious but won approvement. Jeremy has asked a few times to have his tea iced, each time met with the scoff of "peut etre pour l'ete." He sips his hot tea.
Jeremy uses the elevator to go two floors above his own. In the room the assistant, sporting croissant crumbs on his lapel to match Jeremy's own near the shirt pocket, is busy starting the Avid and organizing the bins.
Jeremy sits down to his day's work of reminding people what they already know but have chosen to forget because they felt they were too important, too busy and both.
His day will consist of managing a few frames, keeping tabs on the music composition, making sure the director meets with the Minister of Arts, and then the doctor, and pressing his thumbs into the tiny buttons on his mobile phone. He will talk incessantly but always with productive intent.
Later another assistant will call with an invitation to dinner at an impossibly hip restaurant with a group of celebrities and pseudo-celebrities.
He will go and eat something with a delicious sauce and charm the pants of anyone within earshot.
Except for that one person who has no wit.

Propping Up a Date


Hey Hayden. Hi Ted.
There is this wedding upstate I have to go to this weekend. You doing anything?
I really need to go get groceries for the week.
I have a car, I can take you to Fairway Saturday morning.
When is the wedding?
Saturday afternoon.
Isn't that cutting it a little close?
Oh, yeah, I guess it is.

Man with Backpack, Perusing on the Street


It happens. You didn't know it was going to happen and now you know it happened and there it is, as nature piously intended. The happening isn't really the sticky part, and neither is the aftermath, really.
It's the lead up.

Spring Waves


I officially ran into the early-to-mid-thirties work-all-the-time wall this winter. Perhaps there will be a vernal let-up but I must be careful what I wish for. All I have to do is think about the last three breakneck months and remember to remember. Here is a photo of a window near a steak house. There, tucked in the corner is a surfboard that hasn't been used since the turn of the year. There, tucked in the corner is the blatant, unrelenting, often ugly reality of my own choosing. Tucked in that corner are some of my hopes, too.

Early Life Fun


I still read this book of Buddhist quotes in the morning. This month the book is talking about how emotions are the hobgoblin of our happiness. How we must harness the desperate lurches and lunges of our meandering feelings. This is basically the main tenet of Buddhism itself. That is, the idea that life is full of despair brought on by our desires. All we need to do is stop wanting so much and see things as they are, objectively, namely misperceptions. Something along those lines anyhow.
I struggle with that idea. I don't know if I buy into it really. I reckon examining one's expectations is pretty important. Thats a little different than killing all desire. In a perfect world, perhaps one would feel, then act, then think later instead of struggling all the time to think through things. Granted, there is much negative that comes out of acting on emotion, and that has to be dealt with, but feeling it, feeling that gut instinct towards good, or helpfulness or whatever, that is what life is. A bunch of feeling and movements.
The Buddhist method is to let emotions flit off like the air they are. This certainly has its place. As an end game though, thats a pretty cowardly approach to pain.
I'll probably disagree tomorrow.

No Polaroid Day

Bibi sent me this email, a forwarded bit of an email she recently received from her ten year old sister. In explanation, Bibi made clear that her ten year old sister is the class president. How that sheds extra light on the ensuing passage, I don't know, but somehow it does.


my world is falling apart. My class bff hangs out with boys so much that shes dating and ditching me for them.

my school bff Alyssa is always hating boys and sometimes i like to hang out with boys but she pulls me away. Thats why all boys hate me.

my other school bff is ditching me for a girl named jade.

my world bff is still a true bff

New England Cat


Breathe. Breathe deeply. Remember what it was like to be you.
It was delicious and bizarre and a little unnerving all of the time. Like something was wrong with your ear and you couldn't quite get your balance.
You're still you. And it's still weird.

Elysse & Gregg Installing Brand New Entertainment Center ca. 1997


Not long after this photo was taken, Gregg and Elysse sold this house and moved into Elysse's dream house. A couple years down the road, they sold that house and bought a far more dreamy home (my estimation) on the top of a hill overlooking two perfect Central Coast valleys. Gregg built a big toy for his three kids and Elysse started a home business. There they live in relative anonymity in the bosom of all that is wonderful about the coast of Southern North America: closely cropped rolling hills dotted with cows, white oaks and golden condors, all a stones throw from unknown Pacific spinodes and a secret reef or four.

Street Cred vs. The Saturday Morning Grouch (or) Proverbially Fingering The Obvious


Street credibility has lost its appeal. Like anything fashionable and consumer driven, the idea that one can manufacture authenticity by following some esoteric rule or adhering to some higher ethics of artistic moral durability is pretty zany. Inevitably, street cred is a consensus pick, something upon which some group has hung their collective hat. You gotta be kidding me with that stuff. Not that it doesn't exist, just that its no different from any other moral majority for which the parameters have been tweaked. Some will call them boring naysayers; others, arbiters of hope; others, brave iconoclasts. Its all in how you look at it, and as soon as you read about it online, hear about it at work or see it at the park, its a sham.